i keep telling myself that things will stop changing. but they don't.

my friend, jodi, says when you have no control you have to let go.

and since i pretty much have no control over anything, i'm learning to let go.

but letting go of my dearest friend will be hard. watching her pack and move will be the most difficult goodbye yet.

my first reaction was joy. joy bc i love her.
my second reaction was selfishness. selfishness bc i love her.

i will be in denial for a few more months. expect a breakdown late summer when i realize she's gone.