love

when my little boy was born it was painful how much i loved him. a protective love. i thought it was my only love. that it would never change. it was so strong, how could it?

but it does.

today i fell in love with him again. a new kind of love. a silly kind of love. giggle until your belly hurts kind of love. so funny that you cry kind of love. i-wish-you-would-stay-this-little kind of love. i-don't-want-this-moment-to-end kind of love. silly love.

and so it begins. many more years of experiencing new kinds of love.

diet coke

1st day back to work after a long trip to hawaii and a short trip to florida. i pretty much feel like a truck has run over me...then backed up and ran over me again.

a diet coke always helps.

go to vending machine. i see it from a distance. brand new and beautiful.
no diet coke. it's a pepsi machine now. for the love of god.
walk downstairs to cafeteria. decide on a tea instead.
no normal tea. only black tea, green tea and lots of other fruity teas. lord help me.
decide to try diet coke fountain soda.
ice maker broke. poke my eyes out.
get a teeny tiny bit of ice and realize i am getting caffeine-free diet coke.
pour it out.
fight the ice maker again.
get a diet coke. finally.
pay. walk upstairs. drink.
it's flat.

i want to go back to florida.

you need what?!!

ever feel this way? me too. go buy this card and send it to me.

wiffle ball

tonight we had a friendly game of wiffle ball with the neighbors. friendly until brody yelled 'let's kick their butts mommy!'

who do you think he got that from?

checks

the money fairy has been looking out for me lately. 3 days in a row.

day 1: check in mail from geico for $35
day 2: check in mail from time warner for $62
day 3: check in mail from state farm insurance for $142

i love the money fairy. and the mailman. they are my best friends.

milk

a quick trip to hen house for milk turned into a lollipop meltdown and hide-n-seek in the aisles. hide-n-seek in high heels nonetheless.

the guy behind us at the checkout was amused. he reminded me that it goes by quickly and that although his daughter is all grown up now seeing a baby having meltdowns makes him miss those moments.

brody then sat where the plastic bags are kept. refused to get down. so i told the cashier to just put him in a bag. the guy behind us laughed. i pointed out that i already had my bags, this one was for him.

he thought i was kidding.

vocabulary words

brody's vocabulary words this week are caring, respect and manners. so we did a review tonight after dinner. here is how it went...

what does caring mean?
don't hit your friends.

what does respect mean?
we don't throw things at people.

what does manners mean?
don't poop on the floor.

dress yourself day. take two.

really brody? this is what you want to wear to school?

a day on the farm

my sidekick and i had a full day on the farm today. hayrides, tractor races, fishing, milkin' cows, pretending to be indians, feeding the fish, chasing ducks, tormenting goats....

exhausted.

our cowboy. he was all of 14 years old...the view from behind made him seem more heroic.

hayride is over. he's not getting off. he wants to stay on the wagon with the cowboy.

of all the fun things we did, this was by far his favorite. feeding the fat, overfed fish. i eventually ran out of quarters and had to pick fish crumbs off the ground for him. but it made him happy and well, i have no shame.

this goat had no idea it would eventually be tackled by him. it was the perfect size for tackling. can't blame the kid.

that kid may have been older but brody kicked his butt. i mean, he cheated and all. but give him some credit for knowing to cut the kid off and take a shortcut. high five bro.

milkin' a cow. a plastic cow. strange.

he asked the indian lady for some water and a spoon.


couldn't get to that teepee fast enough. truth be told, i was running too. who doesn't love teepees? come on.

in he went. into a dark tunnel. his biggest fear. i don't think he realized what was happening. oh and look...i caught an orb. eeeek.

kisses

sat brody at the breakfast table with his friends, gave him a hug, said goodbye and started towards the door.

then pitter patter. oh no. turn around expecting a melt down.

instead i hear...wait, mommy, you forgot to give me a kiss!

i love him. love.

brody goes YouTube

operation breakthrough

operation breakthrough is just a few blocks from where brody goes to school. on 31st and troost. before we moved, we drove by it every day. and we saw these little faces every morning.

if you are from kc...watch. and help. don't just drive by.

http://www.operationbreakthrough.org/ob_video.html

fall

i have spent a lot of time feeling sorry for myself this week. too much pain. too many drugs. add an almost 3 year old to the mix, one that pounces on me every chance he gets. i finally snapped out of it this morning and woke up to a sense of normalcy, no pain and no drugs. thank you doctor for giving me a limited supply, i would have indeed taken them forever.

fall has arrived. which means i have to prepare this house for it. i have no clue what i am supposed to do. my mom continually reminds me (and by that i mean just about everyday) to cover the holes under my sink so mice don't get in and to change the filter on my furnace.

my house doesn't have a basement, just a crawl space. if you are a blog follower, then you already know i hate basements. i hate crawl spaces even more. shamefully, i bought this house without even going down there to look at it. i still haven't gone down there. i opened the cute little fairy-like door to peek in. there is gravel on the floor, lots of spiderwebs and it's dark. no way in hell am i going down there. changing the filter will have to wait.

i did though take care of the mouse business. i covered the holes under my sink that open down to the crawl space. i also bought mouse sticky traps. i have mixed feelings about this bc i don't want to kill (torture) them. luckily i bought 2 bc my hand got stuck in the first one. do not touch me for a few days...unless you want to be stuck to me then go ahead.

pretty sure there are some other things i am supposed to do for fall. i will google.

assembly

this trainset was assembled in the box when i bought it. swear.

get it home. instructions say to un-assemble. un. and re-assemble. assembly was for packaging purposes only. they tricked me.

also. no batteries. evil.

favorites

it is painfully obvious that i am my mom's favorite child.

sorry siblings. maybe you would have better luck with dad?

firsts

thank you jeannie for my first pair of boxers. i love you.

today

everything about today was stupid.

except...
i got a virtual hug from adam. gush.
a real hug from angie. love her.
slobbery kisses from brody...along with a few kicks right where my stitches are. awesome.
and more hugs in the mail from my mom. sweetest mom ever.

backup. today wasn't so stupid.

ipod

if you throw away a broken ipod adapter, you should first remove the ipod.

boo.